This week, the very last week of 2020 you can expect the unexpected. And why the F not right? For the finale, things are going to be a bit jacked up and there will be some chaos (but we are supposed to trust that it's for our Highest Good).
When a Tower moment hits it throws you for a loop. With it comes a lightning bolt of clarity that cuts through lies & illusions allowing truth to comes to light. Your (our) world may come crashing down before you, in ways you could never have imagined as you realize you've been building your life on unstable foundations perhaps– false assumptions. Everything you thought to be true has turned on its head. You are now questioning what's real vs. what's not. This can be disorienting, especially when your belief systems are deeply challenged. Silver lining: over time, you come to develop new belief systems that are more representative of reality.
Best way forward? Let this outdated, old ass structure self-destruct so you can re-build and re-focus. And let’s be real – with a card like the Tower, you have no choice but to accept the destruction and chaos, no matter how unwanted or cray. Change on this level is hard, but you (we, collectively) need to trust that life is happening FOR you, not TO you and this is all for a reason. Destruction allows new growth to emerge and your soul can evolve. You will be stronger, wiser and more resilient. These moments are necessary for your spiritual growth and enlightenment. Truth and honesty will bring about a positive change.
Note: The Tower doesn’t always associate with pain/turmoil. If you're highly aware/in tune with your inner guidance system, then this card can indicate a spiritual awakening or revelation. You may be able to see, or you have seen the cracks forming and will take action before the whole structure comes tumbling down. You may create a massive transformation before you reach the point where change is your only option. In its most positive form, the Tower card is your opportunity to break free from the old ways of thinking that have been holding you back which is prime energy for pre-new year vibes eh? I can diiiiiiigggggg. it.
+ + + As I continue covid-pneumonia recovery, I have to say ...every day continues to be a new roller coaster ride. Last week, my body felt stronger. This weekend I was knocked on my ass with fatigue, depression, a sinus infection & prednisone withdrawal. I'm not myself. However, I continue to mediate, pray, color while doing mantras to keep me balanced & safe from the manic in my head. Thought the sun would be good for me so I stepped outside for the first time today without oxygen. We walked one block, to the coffee shop. It took everything out of me. To say I'm emotional is most definitely an understatement because I cried every time a neighbor stopped to say hello. Listen, I don't know how to be anything less than honest with you about all of this and I want to be truthful because there is so much bullshit to wade through. Each persons diagnosis is so different. Last week I was on such a high, coming off my meds. As I write this, I feel like I got hit by a bus (again). I don't know what will happen in the days and months to come, but I do know that I'm not taking my mental, emotional, spiritual or physical health for granted ever again. AHHH!!! Enough about me. I know many of you are in your own pain right now and I am feeling you so deeply. It's part of the reason I'm sad when I am sad. I want to be helping. I want to help - to be helpful. But here we all are at the end of the long and wild flavored journey of 2020. God, I hope you are well. I hope your Christmas was spectacular for what it was and was and what it could be. My wish is that your new year - however you (get to) celebrate - is a show stopper in the very best of ways possible and that your vision board dreams and more come true.
All my love, M.