Confessions of An Off Duty Psychic Medium

In December 2019, death was all around me. I saw skulls in faces, dreams. everywhere.

Journal: 12/19/19. I told Jim what's happening and the anxiety it is causing me. I tried to describe it the best I could with sounding like I needed to be locked up. We both got emotional.

He remembers it to this day.

Right around Christmas, I met her. The Goddess of Death in Trappe Ally. Jim Thorpe.

She looked much like the character of Santa Muerte in Penny Dreadful, City of Angels (below). But I wouldn't realize this until four months later in April of 2020

when it premiered on Showtime.

I didn't understand what was happening. I've seen Angels. I've seen Mary Magdelene. I've seen Jesus.

NO Fear. Just love.

Was life calling me to be a death duala? Should I learn how to write wills? This goddess, was not the grim reaper. NO FEAR. Just love.

She was so lovely and part of the greater universal process.

I realized her presence and it was thick and it wasn't leaving.

So my axiety became a little greater and perhaps things weren't 1000% clear because of it. Should I write a book about how to get your life affairs in order because we are all going to die one day? Why else would a loving Goddess bestow her depth and breadth and beauty upon me? Of course let me help the masses with a book I've always wanted to write! I called a lawyer and a death doula and interviewed them both.

Recorded both sessions for notes and such.

I had to realize what I was seeing and feeling all around me like putting pieces of a puzzle together; mind mapping? Shah. I interviewed a book editor/ publisher. Thoughts about being in business with death, writing about getting your affairs in order and birthing a great big death to do list and telling the masses to get ready for death as a business model and back into business with death wow! Just having to figure out how to do it.....without focusing too much on the "end" resultls get it?

HAHA!

I had no idea this romantic business deal and drama was about the pandemic.

What a shit show.

You guys know the rest.

So I get a liitle choked up about death every time of year this year. So much loss. So much pain. So much will never be the same. Something's happening again. This time, I'll tune in better.

Until then, be good to each other for no reason.

XO

M